Sunday, April 25, 2010

Writing Skills exam... Hannina's mother...

24th April 2010..

i really was not in da mood for anything..
i was really in bad mood and i don't even noe why..
i don't even have appetite to eat..
plus, i got exam paper later in that afternoon..

i went to the exam hall feeling uneasy..
i answered the questions base on what i noe only..
i juz did what i have to do..
that's all i can say..
and it had been quite a long time since i use my head 2 hours straight..
so in conclusion, i was having a really bad headache at that time..
man, it was soooooooo frustrating~

i finished answering like 15minutes earlier, so what i do was to put my head on the table, and close my eyes for a while...
the paper was quite challenging though~

later after exam, nina received a phone call from her sister..

to our surprise, her mom passed away at 4pm that day when we were having exam...
our exam ended at 4.30pm...

she cried her heart out~


her mom had stroke..

so, the HEP called and handled her transportation to go back home in Kuantan..
it took like 5hours to go there from tg.malim..
me, elly, and effa went along with nina to her place...

we reached her home by 10.30pm..
we prayed first then read yassin...

i really don't know what to write right now..
i'm just totally..... i can't describe what i feel...
nina lost too many people in her life...
she has three elder brother.. and she has a twin...
1st she lost her sis-in-law..
then 3 of her uncles..
and now, her mother..
she was about to loose her mind when the 1st time she got the news..

she was hugging me tightly and was crying..
she was telling me how she felt and how she was not ready for all this..
how she can't face all these...
it was just too much for her..

what can i do???
i hugged her back..
talk to her..
calm her down..
give her advice...

she really needs to be strong..
i just can't stop my tears..
i cried with her..
i just can't stop hugging and holding her hands..
cuz she was holding mine tightly..
it really seems that she really needs her friends at that time..

we went back in tg.malim that very night because we have exam on monday..
but nina can postpone her till next week..
we reached tg.malim at 7.30am...

i really did thought about what i want to write in my blog yesterday..
but today, when i sit infront of my laptop, i just can't write it out..
too many things going on in my mind right now..

i'm sorry i can't be by your side right now but i'm sure you're family members are really doing at their best to calm you down..
you need to be strong nina..
"Allah tidak akan bagi dugaan kepada hamba-Nya jika mereka tidak mampu hadapinya"
i know you're facing a really hard time right now and i couldn't do anything else other than just to say, pray for your mom..
pray for your family members..
Allah knows the best Nina...
all of us here, your friends will always be by your side whenever you need us..
we will try our best to help you out..
i'm sorry i couldn't do nothing more...
just remember, other than your family, you still have us, your friends...

Be strong hannina~

Thursday, April 22, 2010

My Life Would Suck Without You~

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again 

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you 

Baby I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you 

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you 

Being with you
Is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can't let you go
Oh yeah 

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you 

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you


Wednesday, April 21, 2010

BGFF & BBFF history..




never thought this kind of terms existed..

Friends Forever!!!!


Kenegaraan paper.. head observer..

as usual, if the exam is being conducted at Taman U, there will be tones of people waiting infront of the gate to get in the classes..
the exam starts at 9am, and we were let in at almost 9am.. plus we had to push one another to get in the classes..
as soon as we got in the classroom, the head observer, using the mic, were like shouting telling us to sit down and fill in the forms..
okay, u're using the mic, no need to say it out loud..

once we were sitted, she kept on yelling at us as if we were the one that purposely came in the class late..

" i will start at 9am sharp and i have no time to wait for you!!!"


the paper was for an hour, 40 objectives questions..

we were allowed to leave the room before 9.30am if we have finish answering the questions..
so, one of my coursem8 finished his at almost 9.30am and wanted to leave the room..
it wasn't 9.30am yet..

" no, you cannot leave the room, this is not pasar malam where you can go in and out whenever you want to!!"


then at 9.45am, one of the pengajian am students had some difficulties and needed extra OMR paper..

" i really don't understand with these pengajian am students.. saya sgt kagum dgn mereka.. and that kagum is in inverted commas.."

no comment...

then by 10am, we had to pass up the paper..
one of the students did not get the chance to fill in his details yet..
and it will only take a couple of minutes..

" no!.. no!.. i got no time to wait for you.. give me the paper now!"

poor guy..
i don't even know how his result will be like..

after we got out from the class, all of us were walking towards the bus stop..
so, we were like all over the road and was not using the pavement..
well, the pavement were too pack.. plus the women like to walk as if they are the bride at that time..( jln slow sgt)

so, the head observer was driving and keep on honking all the way and it was LOUD!!!

we had breakfast right after the paper and i asked if they know the observer just now..
she was actually a lecturer for other courses but she had to teach kenegaraan..
and she was my friends lecturer..
i wonder how was their class like..

Paper kenegaraan, DONE~

now, 4 more to go..


let's rest~

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

EC 2 exam in DP...

i really need to write this up..
what happen??
i tell u what happen..
i hate the system now..
who organised the DP i don't even know..
i wasn't even sitting with my group..
i was being thrown far away from my group, and my place SUCKS!!!

i was itting right infront of the obsever's desk..
next to a wall which was so close to me..
the place smelled like a cat pee there!!!
how can i answer my exam in such place??!!!


i was controlling my temper as i was really fed up at that time..
how do you suppose to answer when the condition isn't right..


plus, i was having a hard time finding my place and i was the last to sit down...
why does sit number 152 is all the way infront while 153 is like all the way back in the hall???
aren't 152 suppose to be infront 153??
i hate my place!!!
who in the world organised the place??!!!

plus, the exam sheets, there were like thousands of things to fill in before we even start answering the paper..
my course name is the longest ever and i need to write it in full!!!

Pendidikan Program Bahasa Inggeris Sebagai Bahasa Kedua..
short form = TESL..

why can't i just right TESL???
i wasted 10 minutes filling up those things...

the paper was for 2 1/2 hours..
but i took only 1 1/2 hours..
i was really doing the exams despite the smell of the cat pee..

i answered well enough, i think...
at least i was really having fun writing my essay..

A Scary Experience I can Never Forget...
it is base on true story..
but i edited a bit.. to make it even scarier..

i finished my paper by 10.40am..
i really can't stand the smell and i was wondering is it just me who smelled it??

so, i asked the man there if i can get the h*** out of the exam hall..
( of course i asked him nicely)

once i was given permission, i get my butt out of that place in a flash!!!

oh man~

i hope 4 tomorrow exam my place won't be like this..
or even worse???

GOD, save me~

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Great Bday Party!!!


i celebrated my birthday with my brother Kamil!!!
okay.. i know my bday passed last month.. but still.. i want to celebrate with my family too...

how many guest???
let me see...
uncle su's family plus opah=8
uncle mizi's family=4
izan's family=4+1 baby
izzee's family plus kamil=5
me, dady, ummie and kicik=4
brother lateef's family=4
add all up = 30!!!!


the menu..

nasi beryani ( requested by me!!)

what kind of cakes??

Strawberry cheese cake..
Carrot cake..
Chocolate cake..
all baked by us!!!


even though it was tiring.. ( of course).. but i had a great time!!!...

we ate..
we sing..
we went to the club house..
we played..
we talked..

what else to say??
juz enjoy the pics!!!

great time!!
great day!!!
opah came..
izan came..
izzee came..
kamil came..
but not amin..

next week..
my mummy's birthday!!!.

wait for the next post in my blog!!!


Friday, April 16, 2010

MYSIS link.. cause trouble to us!!

in UPSI.. there's a link named MYSIS.. where all the students here use it to check their results, practicum, and even for course registration..
and this link was the cause for many semester 2 students to hate MYSIS so much!!!
why do i say so??
in facebook, they even created a profile saying.. "we hate MYSIS"!!!...
okay, now i will tell the reason for that..

we ( semester 2 students) were told that we can online for course registration on 15th april..
so, we decided to stay up that night because we need to 'fight' to get the class we wanted due to limited classes provided..
we taught everything will go on well..
we waited till 3am, still can't excess MYSIS..
so, effa, jos and chewy who came to my place for registration went to sleep in my bedroom 1st..
so, just me, elly and nina was up..waiting to register.. cuz we need to be fast, if not, we won't get the class that we wanted..
by 4am i can register one subject.. my major subject... so i woke them up, hoping that they can register too..
but unfortunate for them, they couldn't..
we seriously stayed up the whole night till 8am when they wanted to go home..
 but chewy stayed, she wanted to register 1st then go home..

so, i left chewy in the living room and lead my way to my bed..
at 8.20am chewy woke me up and said that we could register...
it took us till 12pm then we finished!!!!
so, i called the rest to come to my place and register again..
so they did cuz by that time, MYSIS was okay...
due to them coming a bit later some of them didn't manage to get the classes that we wanted together..
nina had to take semester 4 major subj.. same goes with elly..
effa and jos are not in the same group as me and chewy...
as a conclusion, we got seperated by some classes...

not only us stayed up till our eyes are like panda..
most of us semester 2 students did..
Alhamdulillah i get what i wanted..
then today, we went to the faculty to add crdt hour cuz maximum was 18 only..
my PA was not there and will only be available on wednesday, where the closing date to add subj is on tuesday..
soo i went o see Dr.Che Ton but she wasn't there either..
even the Dean was not in..
so, i had to see the Timbalan Dekan..Dr.Sri Lanang for his signature..
and again, Alhamdulillah, i got to add my crdt hour without any problems..


in the waiting process, of course,  snap some pics pf me, effa and nina~

when effa gets ANGRY!!!.. yea right~

well, tomorrow i'm off to Crown Hill.. hehehehe...
celebrating my dearest brother's birthday.. Kamil Sulaiman..
he's turning 23 tomorrow..
the celebration is on sunday though..

anyway, Happy Birthday Kamil!!!!!

Monday, April 12, 2010

Cuti2 @ Taiping!!

i went to taiping last saturday right after my silat class..
my dad came to pick me up and we went to Pekan Tg.Malim for lunch..
we ate at pizza hut..
it was my 1st time stepping in there.. ( i mean in tg.malim..)
then after lunch it was like 2 hours drive to taiping from tg.malim..
we checked in a hotel which we did check in b4 this..
it was like almost 2 years ago..
we ( ummie, daddy, me & kicik) did have fun!!!

the day we went to kuala kangsar, it was really hot!!!.
we stop by a stall to drink cendol..
both me and my dad drank 2 bowl of them!!..

like father like daughter i suppose..

i really couldn't understand why must guys change into women??!!!
there were so many " BAPUKS!!" in tesco tg.malim..
i mean like, they really look like women!!
in fact, some of them are pretty!!!
there was this one guy.. i mean gay guy, he looked like a women and sing like a women..

i couldn't upload many pictures in here as i took pictures from ummie's camera..
so.. all the pictures are with her..

nothing much to write here.. i'm just tired and hungry right now..
i arrived here in khar like 10am this morning..
slept till 12pm..
woke up, washed my clothes, clean up my room, feeling lazy to go down and buy food..
now, i'm starving... huh...

this week is my study week..
really want to show my dad that i can get great results..

this is what happen when kicik don't get toys that he wanted..

and when he gets it, this is what happen..

i took this picture.. where all the LEMBUT guys are all around...

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Yes!!.. I'm done.. Now is time for Holiday!!!!

at last..
on week14, all my tests and asgmnts are done..
nothing left for me to do other than to get ready for my final exam..

today i had my silat test..
it was raining heavily this morning and the field where we practice our silat is totally "BASAH!!!"..
we waited till the rain stopped like an hour or so..

my group was the 2nd group to be tested by cikgu khalid..
we had practiced in my place for a week now..
my right shoulder hurts so much since the last time i had my fever..
 i don't even know why it hurts so much..
so it was kinda hard for me to do the locks..
but i manage to get through it..
all of us passed.. (me, chewy, ekin and jiha)

yesterday my dad called me while i was on the bus, juz finished my class at that time..

" I'm coming to pick you up tomorrow by noon, we're going to Taiping!!"

is it a vacation??
i was really tired at that time to even think to go out and have fun..
but right after i had finished my silat test just now, i am now kinda excited a bit even though i'm  a bit tired..
i'm just updating my blog for now and about to get ready to go out with my dad, ummie and Kicik..

goodbye Tg.Malim!!!
i'll see you tomorrow and we'll start studying..



Friday, April 9, 2010


where ever i go..
where ever i land my feet to study..
there will always be good friends all around me..
there will always be friends that are nice to me..
there will always be friends that will always be there for me..
and for that i love them so much..

but being a good friends doesn't mean that you can do anything for them..
what i mean here is.. when a bad thing happen to them all you can do is to comfort them because that's all that are left for you to do..

last year, a close and a very dear friend of mine lost her father and i was not there for her..
all i can do was to call her and comfort her..
this year around my BFF in UPSI in a great lost of some of her family members and all i can do is still to comfort her only...

I do feel useless in a way because sometimes i', juz too busy with my own schedule that i don't even know how does my friends been doing..
are they okay??
do they need someone at that moment??
do they need a shoulder to cry on??
what is the use of being a BFF if i can do any of that...

i really feel sad and sorry for what had happened to my friend and i hope she will be strong in facing all of the difficulties in life..
i'm sorry for not being such a good friend because i only get to know about all this through a friend of ours..
if she did not tell me about it, for sure i had no clue at all...

I remember someone said this to me once..

" Allah takkan turunkan dugaan kepada hamba2 Nya jika mereka tak mampu utk menghadapinya."

Thursday, April 8, 2010


you might wonder..
"what's so special about lunch??"..
"why do i need to post anything about it??"
well, let me tell you why..

actually, for tomorrow's class, me and my group member have to do a play..
so, we need to discuss a bit on it..
what to do and so on...
but the papers are with me..
plus i'm the only one staying here in KHAR while the rest in KZ..
so, last night i wanted to make an appointment with them..
we were suppose to meet today during lunch hour..
but one of my group member has an eyesore..
so, we cancelled it and wanted to meet tomorrow morning instead..
but then, the one that has an eyesore called me and said that he's already infront of my college..

so, i had to go down and meet him to pass the paper to him..
i was wondering why did he came all the way to KHAR just to get the papers from me..
anyway, he waited for me at the Pizza and Bakery shop..
when i got there, i passed the papers to him..
before we even start our conversation, it was azan..
so, we didn't talk until the azan was over..
i don't know why, but sitting infront of him during the azan seems like a very long time..

we talk for a bit regarding the play tomorrow when suddenly the waiter came and serve us pizza...
okay, is he going to eat all this???

then he said to me, order my drink..
erk!!!!... i don't even bring my money cuz i thought we were only going to discuss a bit..
i ordered ice lemon tea and said that i wanna go up and get my money..
but he said it was on him..
it was always on him..
i felt guilty eating for free every time i eat with him..
plus, that place was rather expensive!!!

it was the 1st time i ate only with him, and not with our friends...
it felt like a date!!!
maybe it was just me but seriously i felt like people were looking at us..
but why??!!!

i asked him whether he was used eating at that shop or not..
his answer was the same as mine..
it was both our 1st time eating there..
it was nice there but the flies ruin the moment...

he said he wanted to go to clinic right after lunch cuz his eyes hurt pretty bad..
he might not come for tomorrow's class and might be driving back home tonight..
so, he won't be acting in the play tomorrow then..

the total for the lunch was RM17.50..
the most expensive meal he ever paid for me!!!
we did eat together before with our friends and he paid for them too, but that was like RM5 per head..
but this is like RM 8.75 per head!!!!
how am i ever going to repay him??
i know he didn't pay for me so that one day i will pay for him back..
but we do need to pay back when someone did something for us right..
but when i'm going to pay back??
i don't even know...
we aren't in the same class anymore next semester.. maybe..
and next week is already study week..

anyway i'm glad i met him..
he's a really good friend...
and he always makes me laugh.. A LOT!!!

Thank you so much Que for being so nice to me..








First Love Utada Hikaru

Wednesday, April 7, 2010


It never crossed my mind at all
That's what i tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

It's for the best i know it is but i see you
Sometimes i try to hide what i feel inside
And i turn around you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me i'm not over it
Tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

Should be strong movin' on but i see you
Sometimes i try to hide what i feel inside
And i turn around you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me i'm not over it
Tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe i regret everything i said
No way to take it all back yeah
Now i'm on my own how i let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand!

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me i'm not over it
Tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me i'm not over it
Tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
And i really don't know what to do
I'm just a little too not over you not over you

maybe the lyric should be change a lil bit cuz if i were to dedicate this song, it suppose to be for a guy..
i juz don't get it..
promises being made..
all the things being said..
all the things that have been through together..
all the things that i've done..
all the things that i have compromising..
it juz won't get through his head will it..

i was been told last year to forget about 150808..
not by others but himself..
should i???
shouldn't i???
it seems like he can get over it by now..
he's having a splendid time..
he's being too happy with all the women around him now..
this is what i get???

should i forget everything now??
should i juz move on??

hope both of you will be together till the end cuz i can see now that you prefer to be with her rather than me..

Good Bye then...

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